Nevertheless happy Monday to u and I wish u a successful and amazing week. I ended with telling about my search for friends, some mysterious riddle and also about my fun of finding the solution around surprising loving wonders and facts. The core of my seemingly Himalya like problem and secret so starts with our responsibility all in hands of brothers. Also at work I saw some kinds of forms of very very strange unexplainable behavior at male collegues or chiefs. I left this job and researching about my unknown problem plus what is going on for example I found out that nowadays in Germany women need a long time of education or trainings more than men to be able to be working at the same position. Seemingly systematically this is leading to a long row of young or elder ladies being already much more skilled and experienced than their equal team members. Additionnally I found statistics and studies who tell about the massive inequal ownership of our top positions where main decisions of our counry are made or should me made. Within the last years at the Grammys there was not one women as a producer present and also in politics, sciences or the sports management numbers of women are very few. At another place I read about girls to 50% still learning kind of traditionnal jobs like nursing, office assistants or shop worker. So a big amount of our girls daily in their daily lives are spending their work lives in middle levelled professions and positions. There is another funny inequal
phenomenon called hepeating which I also spoke about in "SWORDFISH". It happens in a work team that a whole lot of group of women or single parts of the team are creating the greatest ideas. Then after sharing them noone gives attention to them or considers them. Following a man of the team later is stealing the thoughts while of anyone around is fully praising him for them. ;) ^^
I already mentioned that I have a whole blockbuster of four years behind me. In it the search of the most beautiful and precious people as closest friends takes place, as well as not being able to wait to meet our biggest leaders, coming closer to them and getting to know them step by step more for love, deep common study or our usual daily voluntary projects! In some personal questions and special aspects of life or my work also I was looking for help and support. Partly everything went smoothly, lovingly and kindly peacefully. Then a huge horrific scenery not only on my inner screen was appering in front of me suddenly, when noone at once seemed to be speaking to me humanly further anymore, was once even asking me about how I am, relating their words and sentences to my questions and mine or was seeming to be caring about my problem, issues and questions. I was seeing a very unusual kind of behaving in these teams I needed to communicate to or who are given the tasks to care for such concerns. Then it took me around full long whole years with 12 months each, 48 counted together, in which at any day I was looking for a solutions, examining, analysing and trying to understand the core of the difficulties. I feared to be experiencing a huge damage through this, as if my development was blocked and while doing in my eyes really rare funny precious work kind of being put into a too cool grey room, put aside, made invisible or being mistreated. At the beginning I was so surprised and I did not know such a behavior of the Yogis around me who used to be my sweet homies and friends. Year after year I sent mail after mail to them, were calling them etc. while they did up to today feel like they never cared only once about one of my wishes, thoughts, needs or questions. (: ^^
...I was improving my kickboxing, also for other occasions, to possibly being able to defend myself...
For a long time I was improving my kickboxing, also for other occasions, to possibly being able to defend myself if they'd keep on acting in such a way, abusing our great organization and planning to maybe become dangerous to me. I kept on gaining information about the situation, kept on communicating to them, but nothing ever seemed to help. While I was in my work and daily life fully, caring for my meditation, spiritual study supporting my family, cooking in the evenings, skateboarding and being busy with life with my friends it took me then up to now for the end of the riddle. I did not have that much time, only a few minutes at the days or at night after having eaten and anything else. From 2018 onwards I was floating around our globe trying to look into the mind of any of our lovely main leader while contacting them about my seemingly unsolvable problem the team in Hamburg, Germany and others were creating for me. Unexpectedly at no place then following I found, mentioning this without arrogance, an intelligent, alert or supporting mind like mine it looks like. I was getting crazy over it, the thought of not knowing what is going on in my favorite group of people and the world of mine made me almost mad. I am very blessed the answers did not stop to keep on coming to me. I was able to learn and proceed further, trying to create pictures or metaphors who are helpful for me to get the insight I needed, truth, hush myself and stay calm. Very much I adore my path of Raja Yoga and to me it was a disaster to kind of not being able to proceed, being cut off daily activities (male members, and a few female, as the team in Hamburg started to really threat me, defame me and then amongst literally every other of our international leaders ignored me for years without being willing to solve our conflict after I asked for it. I therefore stopped to see them.) However I do not give up until today in my looking for the deepst most amazing company, solving the secret and finally hopefully forever finding the souls on my mind to share my life with, doing researches, spending my most precious beautiful life with and keep on on changing our world for the better. A few days before New Year's Eve me missing grown mature creative great successful sisters or brother was getting so worse... but these also were kind of the last days in which I was able through my hobby research, combining and creating the solution I need... Up to today everything was great and I keep on partying...! ;) ;) ;) soon soon soon (: ^^
...to be continued in a short while. <3
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