NEWS
MY INNER FINDINGS:
Dearest sweet reader, how sooo strange, but also unbelievably fascinating!! In the past many weeks I wrote loads of short stories, or, possibly it is only to me loads with 36 or so... As I already shared in the news below I found new and highly irritating aspects of my self around one or one and a half years ago! As I raised the hours and intensity of my meditation all of a sudden I began to perceive thoughts of me which shocked me to the maximum!! After struggling without any end ever professionally I then saw quite without a doubt the root of it!! It is that I thought: "If others constantly see all of these thoughts in me, I then clearly understand my difficulties!" EVERYONE sees and saw them??? But not me?????? Instantly I googled an satisfyingly found a lecture of a professor who shares there are people on the planet that do not know themselves being mentally disabled. It can be that they start to get to know about it step by step when they are grown-up!! Absolutely it felt like that. Me not knowing 'bout these thoughts or subtle and even gross actions while anyone around me never stop to see them... anything'd get clear with this!! I kept on watching and watching and giving my best to improve as I couldn't believe what kind of thoughts, more and more and even more, I found while researching on them!! I started to call it Whale Watching adoring the idea of my mind being the whale and I adore to watch it!! After I proceeded with looking at it I got the impression it maybe is a dissociative identity disorder as I described below! Strange, isn't it? Today I just continued with looking at my mind while transcribing the thoughts line for line as they appeared on a timeline x to my Mac paper. I practiced to "check and change" which means I check on my thoughts and instantly change any negative I meet down there in my subconsciousness!! That is a method of the Raja Yoga of Brahma Kumaris and surprisingly I heard me creating an identity which still is around 20 years old, a couple with my old boyfriend and she is infertile. She fears a lot the reaction of her boyfriend and if he might leave her!! Also she is afraid of the current new politics which says one only can be married when she or he or them are also becoming children!! As well (I named her Mateshwari as I gave a name to any of the kind of DID-like identities I met within me lately) Mateshwari never was befriended with a former female mate of her/me, but that young lady instead of her did the training as Hip Hop journalist! I am not sure if she is famous, but she definitely thinks she's an absolute No. 1 on planet earth (or she is...)... Also the me never was a Brahma Kumari and she faces loads of diffamations right now with masses of people saying she'd be!! :D Can't believe it whenever I am watching that part of me, my subconsciousness now!! The I seems to be quite functioning... *LOL* The DID is a Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. However I am wishing you a relaxed greatest time ahead that night or day or something in-between wherever u are!!! Enjoy and study the border between being awake and asleep as Salvador Dalí did in "Dream Caused by the Flight of a Bee Around a Pomegranate a Second Before Awakening" (1944)!!!!!! Love, Diana
MY WORK:
Dear loveliest visitor,
after I shut down all my art and music work for some time lately I decided to publish anything again today!! Just my problem with it were huge insecurities regarding my mental health. After many many years of therapy I found out that all of these years I was in fact possibly dealing with a completely different diagnosis! Maybe I am having to face a dissociative identity disorder (DID/DIS) instead, with parts of myself having been fully completely out of my awareness. As I put so endlessly hard work in LINEA anyway possibly the pieces of art or songs give something bright to u!! (: Please don't be irritated if nothing appears to be normal though with them. Love, Diana <3
LOU REED:
Hey loveliest reader and fan or feminist,
an amazing behavior therapist told me once about Lou Reed, who produced an album with only distorted electrical guitar sounds in his career! His aim was to express about the dysfunctionality of his system within his label... :P ;) It calmed my fear down of not being able to produce only very precious work like I am used to do and all my work of the past years carries traces of such systems of mine as well! So I fit in aesthetical elements expressing this at any places of my work daily here and there, too! ;) Hope it gives something wonderful to you, empowers u or encourages and inspires u to keep on working for your own good at first and then for every women around you... L.
BYE, BYE 20.06.2024
Phew, hi folks...! Lately I got the thought of "Hey, give it a try and experiment with the way to run court actions against social media platforms or their misogyny etc.. But today then I again thought, how exhausting or time robbing that can be! So I deleted my youtube channel and said goodbye finally to it!! Can't wait for countless clean developer with genius ideas for different games...! L.
YOUTUBE
Hey dear souls, as I already let u know at the description to my EP also these little last days left before the selling of my 12 songs appear to be weird looking at the system I am facing... Please forgive that for a hopefully small short time more only things are changing quickly or need more time e.g.. That is why, too, the planned Youtube uploads of the music take some days longer! Thank u for your understanding. Now have fun getting to know what I am speaking about, googleing anything and solving the riddle of why there are still 2.1%/2.6%/2.9% (depending on the source) female music producers on the globe!!! L.
LIFE, NORMALITY + SELF EXPERIMENTING, TO PLAY-ACT, JOKES 18.12.2023
Dear women, art fans and buyer,
are y'all fine and feeling great? (:
Excitedly I adore to inform u that, whenever possibly in the past you saw me outside in the city, during shopping or anywhere else and I appeared with a seemingly lack of normality, there is no reason to worry at all!! <3 Since around three years I was very busy with self experimenting (besides play-acting or joking during the day for my personal entertainment e.g.) on two three aspects of myself, the system I am facing at work, health or within the social world. It at any point in time was much much fun to me! Right now I feel very happy and am blissfully looking forward to let u know 'bout the results and insights I gained through this work. I plan to create songs out of it and to release them soon! ;) (= <3 Can't wait to share with you all of it, let you know about my experiences with the systems or 'bout how they effect me and every other faszinating point of knowledge I was enriching myself with through the studies!!! ;)
So far, I am wishing you not ending silent and very celebrational final days before christmas, plus an awesome funny time until 2024 begins!!!!!
Always take very good care, feed the poor and don't forget to write letters to God! ;) (=
Bye, Diana
FEMALE TABLES CANCELLED
Hi everyone,
I just cancelled the last of my female tables, as there seemed to be not one soul interested locally or nationally/globally! ;) <3 (= However so I keep on fighting the structural issues or last problems within the German work system on my own further!!! (: I hope I am able to release my first songs soon then, too.
Take care and enjoy all of your very last seconds before christmas, the time before or inbetween 2023 and the hopefully happy fresh new year!! (: <3
Loads of love to u and as always I keep on thinking of y'all, our various possibly few still heavy problems or seemingly impossible unsolvable probs. <3
Bye, Diana
BYE, SM
As repeatedly again I absolutely did not like what I just saw on X right now I decided to leave it, Facebook, as well as Instagram already in this moment!
Have fun and can't wait to keep on playing with you in possibly another futuristic innovative digital way or personally somewhere on earth! ;) <3
Take care, Diana
SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS 15.10.2023
Hi my art lovers, dear deep righteous angles and friends,
newly recently I decided for a creative future without Instagram, Facebook, Soundcloud and Twitter plus Youtube. Currently I came to this conclusion as I was either not happy nor feeling safe honestly pretty often with coming across misogynistic Hip Hop music or other actors there. From now on I don't want to come to a collaboration with people or companies who are, too, in contact with such even on that subtle level. Additionnally still I do not feel well with the original intention of Facebook, voting the f***ability of female fellow students. Also with Soundcloud already a longer while ago I was in no way satisfied regarding their reaction towards and seeing how they handle on misogynistic artists using their services. Last but not least with Instagram as well for me comes a customer service which is too slow or simply missing, though it was also at many points very much fun to be present with my art or thoughts and philosophy on all of the platforms. A few days ago I read about an assumption these platforms on the top of this possibly consciously block the music of artists selectively. Along with such maybe facts unluckily I experienced for many years I am not (yet?) able to reach out to our policy for changing laws regardings misogyny or new rules on social media. Therefore I now adore the decision of keeping on with creating my beloved dream-like safe cultural world around me not using them. I am going to delete my profiles on the 19th of October 2023 while you're welcome to enjoy new art on my website or physially present at my first art exhibition with LINEA which I am planning for the end of the year or the beginning of 2024. All news will be published here and I further am wishing u unbelievably much fun with shopping for my art, thinking 'bout it or coming music! L.