Wow,... what was this? My last four years truly were so cool, different, a whole lot of hugest movies in 48 months and... sometimes I was shocked, surprised and right now I am solving a sweet little riddle whose end so heavenly must be like the undescribable most unimaginable important happy end of my life.
...as it makes all to one thousand per cent fully logical sense.
As I already mentioned since around 2007 I am meditating with the techniques of the Raja Yoga at Brahma Kumaris. From 2009 onwards the family and organization there started to begin the place I enjoy to be the most. From the very first second I was getting so happy to meet a women, Didi Sudesh, who seemed to be knowing the same big happiness I did. When I was honored and blessed with getting to know the powerful small group in Stuttgart, Germany, it was amazing to me in a way I don't find words for it easily. At this time I was pretty alone in my warm beautiful south of Germany as a young women and vegetarian. One morning after the Yoga class on Sunday I felt so great to be able to sit within the group of all having been vegetarian, too. Since then I regularly began to meet my sisters and brothers, fellow Yogis, our main Yoginis, youth group, eldest teachers, at Mt. Abu the small kids, my younger sisters as a coordinator of the Youth Retreat or ever without knowing it our peaceful loving members of the team who are responsible for inviting precious politicians or other VIPS to our Yoga and meditation sky in India.
My own level of study from the very beginning onwards was varying and mostly middle nice. It always has been easy for me to join friend circles like in our German youth group, my for a time daily family in Stuttgart of middle ages, the international youth service team or also our environment initiative. They were containing of teacher of young ages, Yogis with hugest responsibilites or the main as we call it in charges of our university. All the years so much I was fine with what I was gaining from the path of spirituality, my company of the other Yogis or what I myself was achieving and receiving through it. At some point a few years ago I felt further I was increasing the depth of my learning or speed of development. The first time I was reaching a point where I was looking for someone who I suddenly I had the impression is though even similar to me or was becoming successful in a same way etc. While usually everything was floating easily for me mostly then I was facing to see up to today I was not able to find like one of our eldest Dadis (elder sister), most experienced members in the Yoga organization or sisters to get support in questions of my daily life or as well for activities like sports, who were like me longing to become my best friends and other to me most essential contents of my life.
Like a wonder and blissfully one of our teachers, Denise Lawrence, around this time shared with us some observations and analyses she made. She told me she found out that due to some reason within these days it were only kind of middle educated souls who were our teacher, main leader or No. 1 heads in what we lovely call Yagya. In these weeks one pure and quite difficult secret began to become important to me. Possibly I am only much slow with it or it was truly a mountain range as hard as the Himalaya. Nevertheless when she met and was visiting us in Hamburg, Germany, too, what she was explaining to us is this: one of our most important principles normally for the process of the empowerment of women is that any of our commitees should be guided by two of our Yoginis. Though like I know in many areas of e.g. the work life Denise told me also at our head quarters practically at that time it still was a hand ful of men who were in the end leading. Now I am having as well such a hard time behind me, but until funnily and wonderfully like in an investigation story I finally am able to combine powerful tiny parts of about what possibly was going on, who might be who in my world, who is ruling where behind the doors of the buildings of ours and then excitedly I like a wonder saw my work and examination was successful as it makes all to one thousand per cent fully logical sense.
...to be continued in a few days. (:
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